(I'm 18F, 5'6, 148lbs, in the healthy weight range, on the thicker side, with a fair amount of muscle mass)
So...
I'd start with that I know my approach is not the healthiest, but I'm afraid of changes and it's been sustainable so far (difficult tho) and I see nice results. It's not doing damage to me physically, but it is damaging mentally. So I guess here's a TW, just in case.
So I'm very strict with myself when it comes to working out. My routine takes about 2 hours a day, I do it 5 times a week, which is not the problem. I mean, it kind of is because my school days usually end at 16:30 and have stuff to do at home, so it can be a little tricky. But the issue is that I stick to this no matter what and I push through it even when I'm sick or injured as long as the pain is bearable, pushing myself over my limits.
So my breaks are usually on Monday (because I don't have time to finish it properly that day) and Saturday (because I need just ONE day when I don't do shit)
So this week was just a little bit different. My prom was yesterday and I stayed home the entire week to make sure I don't come in contact with anyone who has covid and won't end up having to miss out (can't get vaxxed for medical reasons, long story). So I had a bit more time on my hand and decided to adjust my routine a little bit and do my workout on Monday too, so I won't have to do it on Friday right before my prom and keep my other break on Saturday so I get to rest the day after.
The thing is, we got home earlier than I anticipated, got to go to bed our usual time and so I feel like I don't have an excuse not to do it. Like, on a normal week I would take a break this day like I normally do anyway, but JUST because I didn't do it yesterday, I feel like I should now, and take a break on Sunday.
I won't. I won't do it today because I don't want to, but I feel guilty. To an extent I feel like feeding into the guilt would just cause more damage mentally. I don't know. I really don't know.
Sorry for rambling and I apologize if this kind of thing is not for this subreddit, I just wanted to share it somewhere.
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