This is just a rant and if anyone has any advice or similar experiences, you are more than welcome to share.
I used to be 260 pounds and got down to 172 at one point. I’m now 188 (I’m 5’5 and female) and recently got out of a psychiatric hospital. I was put on a mood stabilizer and an anxiety medication. The mood stabilizer has a side affect of increased appetite and fluid retention. When I left the hospital I was 180 (so gained 8 pounds since getting out). But I still felt gross and bloated the week I was hospitalized, even though I was definitely not overeating since I was on a controlled diet. It’s only been 2 and a half weeks since I’ve been on the medication and mentally, I feel great. I am no longer suicidal or feeling abnormally intense emotions. My anxiety and sleeping schedule is improving everyday.
But physically, I feel bloated and gross. I still live with my parents and even though I don’t have much money, I will eat anything they have leftover. Like old noodle packets mixed with shredded cheese they don’t use, leftover bread with a bunch of peanut butter, just their dinner leftovers, crackers, chips, pasta + butter, ect. I also will buy cheap fast food and alcoholic drinks on top of that. I’m on my second 14% four loko right now. I know it’s my fault and I’m not forced to buy/eat these things, but sometimes it’s honestly just out of boredom or lack of self control
I’m on the waiting list for therapy that my insurance covers and can’t afford to just go get a therapist, especially since I am going back to school soon.
I do have a nurse practitioner I talk to every two weeks who monitors how I’m doing on my meds (but I’ve only ever talked to her about depression/anxiety and never mentioned any eating issues). Should I talk to her about how I’m feeling on my next appointment coming up? Or will these problems be solved if I simply just force myself to stop overeating? Like I mentioned these meds have helped my mental health a lot and I’m scared if she wants me to change meds, it won’t make a difference and I’ll feel the same when it comes to my weight/appetite or it could make me feel worse
This happened when I first started birth control to regulate my period as well. I had a huge appetite and just kept eating no matter how bloated I felt, then when I switched to another pill, I felt worse. Ive stayed in the 180’s for about a year now. I really want to lose another 40 pounds but I can’t get myself out of this cycle. It sucks I can’t start therapy right away, but I understand how busy they are
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