I've been overweight my entire life, since childhood. I think it's because my parents were always busy working and they kept me quiet with food. Also when I was about 6 my mom put me on a restrictive diet to lose weight on her own initiative, not through a dietician. Looking at her behaviors today I can clearly see she herself has issues with food. Every month she's on a new (fad) diet. It kind of fucked me up as well as my relationship with food.
Anyway, I don't want to play the victim here. But I'm having a really hard time keeping my weight under control. I know perfectly well what I should and shouldn't be eating. But it's sooo hard to 'just say no'.
My BMI is currently the same as my age, 36. A trend that I do not want to see continued. Today is the last days of my holidays in France. I have an appointment next week in a hospital to start a treatment plan to lose weight. They will do some tests, measure my BMR, do some CT scans of abdomen, etc. Over the past week I had to keep a journal of what I have been eating and... it's horrible. It's absolutely horrible. I'm ashamed I have to give this to someone.
Sometimes I'm just wondering if I will ever be able to overcome this and eat like a normal person, or at least feel satiated during meals so that I would just stop eating.
Sorry, I just wanted to share this with a group who hopefully can relate. It's very difficult to find people to talk about this. I have a very supportive wife, but I feel that people who don't have this problem don't really understand sometimes.
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