25F, 5'4", 163lbs CW, GW ???
My boobs are gone, none of my clothes fit me anymore, my confidence is shot and to top it off I got called "sir" the other day by a cashier.
I miss having boobs. I miss my dresses fitting me. I miss being confident and feeling sexy. Now I feel like I look like a potato sack and deflated. I'm so unhappy with my body.
At 204lbs I couldn't run to save my life. I got out of breath walking up the stairs. I was always tired.
At 163lbs I can run a 5k. This morning I ran 5 miles. I can rock climb and go hiking without losing my breath.
So why do I feel so miserable?? I hate my body when I look in the mirror. I feel like I don't deserve to be loved, I feel disgusting. I see other people with my exact weight and height on the progress pictures and they look amazing and feminine. I have no curves anymore and my body looks masculine.
How much more do I have to lose before I can even tolerate looking at myself in the mirror?
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