Since I am back on college after taking a leave of absence for mental health reasons (depression and bipolar disorder), I've been doing a lot of reflecting. In my first year of college, I started my journey in losing weight. I was about 180lbs at 5"7 inches. I had lost about 30 pounds from my original weight of 210lbs. I used to go to the cafeteria to eat, and one day, as I was taking out my food scale, a girl came up to me and asked me what that was. I told her it was a food scale, and almost immediately after, she said "what are you, like, anorexic or something? And years later, that question hasn't left my mind. I was trying to lose weight, coming from being obese, hearing that sure was confusing. Another reason why it was confusing was that as I was tracking my calories, I made sure to eat 1900-2000 calories every day. That certainly wasn't starving myself, right? I guess it was the fact that I was openly carrying a food scale that triggered this sort of response from her.
Honestly, I brushed it off in the moment, but it stuck with me. I ended up stopping eating in the cafeteria, and up until last month, I've only eaten at the bistro, where there's less people. Because of only eating at the bistro, where there's only prepackaged meals and a grill for fried food, I was greatly limiting the type of foods I could be eating. I would literally eat a cheeseburger and fries (which was 850 calories) at the bistro for lunch, and convince myself that it was better than finding healthy, nutritious food in the cafeteria. Well, I am happy to say that about a month ago, I've started becoming more comfortable eating food in the cafeteria. And wow, there's so much more variety of food! I discovered foods that I really like, and are even low calories (like butternut squash!) Now, instead of eating a big lunch of unhealthy food, and limiting myself the rest of the day, I spread out 4 meals a day, and eat a good amount of food for dinner in the cafeteria, and use those extra calories I would have eaten from the burger, to get a late night snack that satisfies me until I go to sleep.
I never knew how one question from two years ago would have so much of an impact on me subconsciously. But I am so happy and proud to say that I have now completely recovered from that comment and am not longer insecure about using a food scale and choosing to eat at the cafeteria.
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/r02u7j/what_are_you_like_anorexic_or_something/
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