Back in high school, i was a little pudgy, but safely under 160. However in 2017 I was admitted to the mental hospital, and the first thing they did was put me on Risperdal.
For those who don't know, Risperdal can cause massive weight gain, and it did. For five years I was and am at 220.
Since then, i just kind of accepted my weight. That as long I'm on medication to help me not die, I'll be heaver than I want to be. I've tried to go on diets and walk more, but I always just ended up giving up because there was no routine to it.
Last week, my friend asked if I wanted to go to the gym with her, and I unintentionally said yes. So today I jusy went to the gym for the first time in five years. Entering was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. It was hella scary. After putting on my headphones and running for 5 minutes i was spent. However, I did what someone else told me to do, and imagine my role model in the room telling me that I could do it. And it worked! I ran at 4 mph for 30 minutes until i had to go.
I told her I had to leave early because i couldn't keep going, but she offered to bring me back next Thursday! And i said yes!
I know its not a lot compared to what some of y'all do, but I'm just happy that my depression doesn't control me anymore. Y'know?
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