29F 5’4” SW 208lb CW 164lb GW 120lb
I’ve been good for 4 months. I’ve been keeping my calorie under 1300 most days, being nutrient conscious, practicing intermittent fasting, never going over my maintenance even on bad days, and thereby consistently losing at a good rate. My lab works have improved, I can run faster for longer, I dropped 2 dress sizes— all in all smooth sailing so far.
Today is my 29th birthday and I spent it all alone. I didn’t talk to a single person besides a bakery cashier from whom I bought my own cake; my dad sent me a text saying happy birthday and that was pretty much it.
I was bullied as a kid for being obese and still have a lot of anxiety and social phobia from that. I don’t really mind being alone usually but it honestly got a little depressing today so I said fuck it, went out, and ate whatever I felt like eating for the first time in 4 months. I had soft serve green tea ice cream on a waffle cone, a slice of strawberry shortcake, and a bag of my favorite potato chips imported from Japan. Also I ordered a very fattening take out for dinner so all in all my total calorie consumption today was 2330 according to lose it.
TBH this number could be way off cause I had to guess the ice cream/ takeout / etc but for a very lonely and frankly upsetting birthday I don’t think I did too bad and I really don’t give a shit today. Don’t really even know why I’m writing this I probably just needed to vent. Anyways going right back on track starting tomorrow. Maybe if I could do this for a few more months then I’ll know that I can at least accomplish something, and my 30th birthday would suck a little less.
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