I am heavier than ever and feel so so embarrassed.

I am 5' 5" and about 215lbs as a 24 year old female. Heavy as I was last year and I'm vacationing in a week in front of my fit and healthy in laws. I feel like a disgusting barnyard animal with no self respect.

After the kids I am flabby and untoned on top of being overweight.

I have zero control over food. Total compulsion even when I'm not hungry. I think I have a full blown eating addiction that no one validates because I'm not 300 plus pounds.

I literally could eat 10000 cals in a day. I self medicate with food and don't feel like I'm living unless I'm filling my face.

I feel like a failure.

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