Losing all my progress and it's not my fault

I'm 15 and live with my dad. It's just us. I was always a chunky kid (I remember having to wear age 12-13 clothes when I was 10) and then covid happened and I sat at home and ate too much and let myself go and got really fat. Just over a year ago I made a change. My dad eat really unhealthy so I start making my own food and I took up running and the gym. I've lost 15kg so far, and I'm proud of that. Or I had.

A few weeks ago my dad say that everything is too expensive and that he won't pay for me to eat my own food anymore. He works at a take out and gets free leftovers so he said it didn't make sense to pay twice for dinner. He also cancel the gym member ship. There is no healthy food in the house, only crisps and chocolate and bread and every night he gets us a big takeaway and he's one of those people who doesn't like to waste food and I have to clear my plate (probably how I got fat in the first place). It's probably close to the days calories in that meal alone.

You could say it is my fault still, because I do eat these things. I'm trying everything I can. I'm picking the healthy option in the school canteen and I've started leaving some. I'm running and doing bodyweight exercises two times a day (I have exams soon and I don't have time to do more). I skip breakfast. But I've still managed to put 5 whole kilos back on.

The part that is my fault is that I do eat the snacks at home if I get hungry because there's nothing else there. I got in this habit during covid times of eating one of those big chocolate bars in one sitting, or a share pack bag of crisps. It was tough to stop but I managed it. I'd have healthy popcorn or a protein bar and that would satisfy me. Not there's no other option but to have the chocolate or crisps and it is getting harder and harder to stop falling back into bad habits.

I've tried to talk with him about it and in the end its just 'my house, my rules'. Does anyone have any suggestions of other things I could do? I'm worried I'm going down this slippery slope and will end up just as fat as I was before. Thank you.

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