This is going to be an emotional rant. Two years ago, I was in a really bad place. My ex husband kicked me and my two sons out. I rebuilt my life from nothing over the past two years... I have no family, no degree. I now have a net worth over $200K and college funds saved for my kids - to show how far I came. I read books every day. I’m in a healthy relationship. I’m also in therapy.
I got off the IUD a year ago because it caused so much bleeding and cramping. Turned out I had a puncture. Once it was removed, I slowly started gaining weight. Covid also hit so I wasn’t hiking anymore.
I also stopped drinking alcohol, soda, etc. this includes the sugar free and diet stuff.
Last month, I quit smoking weed because I don’t need it anymore. I thought no more munchies = definitely would lose weight. I gained! I know I’m eating better too because I’ve switched to Daily Harvest (for the month) and only hit 1200-1400 calories. I swim for an hour every other day. I hike extensively. My social life is incredible. I am very happy with my life - but the weight keeps coming on.
When I started my journey of divorce, I was 150 lbs (I’m 5’2”). Yesterday, I stepped on the scale and I’m 188 lbs. The only reason I got on the scale is because my clothes felt snug and I constantly feel bloated.
It’s 4:40am and I am so stressed out about this. I am opting for healthier choices and choosing myself but I keep gaining. I also have a partner who snacks on candy and chips, eats fast food several times per week (I don’t join him and I have a rule not to do it in front of me) and I’m a little bitter that I’m the one dragging him to swim and hike - he has lost 20 lbs since being with me without even trying.
My personal trainer wants me to get my hormones tested and this will happen within a week. I’m waiting for endocrinologists to call me back.
So yeah, I’m in tears right now. All this work to get sober and in a good place but my body doesn’t match where my mind is.
Thanks for reading.
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