I brought my goal dress today. I'm so demotivated and disillusioned with myself and my ability to lose weight. Day 1 (again).

I am 23 F CW: 100kg (221lbs) HW: 103.5kg (228lbs) GW: 63.5kg (140lbs).

I have struggled to lose weight for the last 2 years, I have tried CICO and IF, before going to the GP and being diagnosed with PCOS. I was told to go low carb, which is how Ive lose the first 5lbs. But I've lost all my motivation. Eating carbs is so much easier, and eating to much or when I'm not hungry is too accessible. I walk quite a lot, averaging 10000 steps a day as a healthcare assistant, but the office is constantly full of sweets and biscuits that I really struggle to say no too. Every morning I wake up and say I will be good today, and then I immediately fall of the wagon and eat, and eat, and eat. No matter how much I hate photos of myself, or how much I want to be slim and fit nice clothes and be able to buy bras at Primark, my motivation is non-existent whenever food is in front of me. I'm so mad at myself for that.

So I will try again, and today I brought a beautiful linen dress that does not fit. It's close, but it's about 10kgs away from being flattering. So that's my first target. It seems impossibly huge a target, but so does 80lbs/40kgs.

Today is a write off, but I hope tomorrow is the last day 1.

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