Today was my last straw. I woke up and felt hungry but didn't want to eat so I can have more calories later. Went to the gym and got so many looks, couple stares including a girl I previously talked to who noticed the significant weight gain. Tried to go shopping for new clothes since I've been wearing the same 5 things for the last 2 years. Realized I'm too big for an XL, but too small for an XXL, nothing fit. Ended up buying a L t-shirt that I'll save for when I finally do lose the weight (which I've been doing for years now). Then went out to dinner with family and received ugly comments about what I was eating, despite us being at a restaurant?
Why is being fat the hardest thing ever? Why do I receive so much hate and judgement for something I hate myself? Why is being fat in the gym so taboo? How else am I supposed to lose the weight if I can't use the proper equipment? Why are there never clothes that can hide the fat and look good on me? Why take me to a restaurant if you don't like the idea of me eating anything other than a salad? Why even talk to me then?
Just wanted to vent that out. I can't wait until this prison sentence is over, sorry for anyone that may have got offended. These are just personal experiences and a bit of insecurity talking.
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