My family, which has not seen me in a very long came to visit, this past week. I was excited to see them! BUT at the same time, dreaded it because for some reason, some members in my family feel it is okay to comment on my weight & to body check me. Btw, this is nothing new. They have been doing this since I was a child, which really lead me to have low self esteem body dysmorphia. To me, it’s just not my style to judge others on their appearance; especially not family. It’s just weird and annoying- but at this point it’s become highly expected. Fast forward to today... I have lost about 56 pounds, and while some of my family congratulated my efforts and noticed a change... Some didn’t comment/notice, which is okay, too! But, the person I cared to see the most made a comment that really upset me. They said, “I thought you said you lost more weight. I imagined you to be a lot more skinny.” I’m not going to lie, this comment hurt immensely! I fully comprehend that I still have progress to make, insulting me doesn’t magically make me lose weight. And the worst part is this hurtful comment came from the mouth of someone I love/respected. I felt like every effort made was for nothing- that I should just give up. I felt like whatever I did would still never be enough. I’m sitting here sobbing, and questioning myself.I already have body dysmorphia, the last thing I want or need is anyone’s opinion. And although I see the scale shifting, my head hasn’t caught up with what’s in the mirror; which can be tricky. I felt really great about my downward trend on the scale, the progress made in the gym, and other non scale victories. I was so motivated to pull forward. But now, not so much.
What do you do in this mess? I think I should just keep to myself and focus on my goals. At the end of the day- this is about me. Still sucks though :/
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