Since my early years in life I struggle with food and my weight. I've been actively trying to loose my weight for almost 6 years now and today I feel like I'm still at the bottom. I'm 5''5 tall and I currently weight 211 pounds.
I tried a lot of things, I've done CICO for years, I tried water fasting for two weeks, cutting refined sugar, intermitent fasting. Everything worked kinda fine for a moment, and then I just got stuck. I'm stuck between 207 and 212 pounds and can't figure out how to get out of this.
I have an executive position in my job, working 6 days a week. Sometimes I work from 5am to 3pm and sometimes I work from 12pm to 9pm. I absolutely love my job but it's taking a lot of time in my life, not counting the time I spend thinking about work related things when I'm at home. Don't get me wrong, I have the time to workout, but I absolutely don't have the motivation or energy. I used to go to the gym (and it's actually one of the only kind of exercise I enjoyed), tried running in the morning (hurted my knees), I did Insanity for 2 weeks, home workout. I just don't like it and I already have so much things I want/need to do on my freetime, I can't convince me to keep the effort more than few weeks. I just don't like it and as soon as I see my weight going up I loose any kind of motivation for exercising.
I cant count my calories neither because I'm working in a bakery, I eat here every single days. But I can't plan in advance what I'll eat because it depends on what will be available when I'll get enough time to take a lunch break. I also regularly have to test the new products. I would also like to train to get a pastry degree. Everything in my life is basically related to food, when I'm depress, cooking or training my pastry skills make me feel good. Food is my passion. But it's also ruining me. I'm sick of not liking what I look like, not finding clothes that fit me. Not liking to go to the beach with my friends or not feeling confident enough to go out with people or girl I like because of my look.
I honestly feel like there is no way of getting out of this. Obviously I won't stop fighting. I started to only eat 2 meals a day to reduce my calories intake considering one of my meal will be a rich salad, a sandwich or a slice of pizza. I do loose around 2 pounds a week, and then get it back on my only day off, then I start again from zero on monday.
Just wanted to vent this out. Keep it up guys.
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