During the week of finals I was so stressed that I ate whatever I wanted and I binged A LOT. Before then I had stopped my snacking habits and I had stopped eating sweets. I refused to eat anything after 7 pm and I was going to gym 5-6 days a week. After finals week I slowly stopped going to the gym until I just stopped and then I started binging EVERY night. I don’t keep binge worthy foods at home so I specifically drive out to get it.
I don’t know what’s gotten into me, I can’t stop. I’m typing this as I have another urge to binge and I’m so tempted to go out and drive to get a bunch of food. Half the time I’m not even paying attention to how much I eat.
I do go to therapy and stuff but lately that hasn’t been helping. I try to distract myself by watching shows or doing art but tbh because of my depression going up I can’t seem to find much motivation for those things either. I had so much will power before but now it’s gone: I try to stop myself from over indulging until I don’t care anymore and say tomorrow is a new day. I’m not starving myself by any means, I’m still eating well. I don’t understand why I can’t seem to control it. It’s driving me insane.
I’ve been avoiding the weight scale knowing that I’d gained weight but today I decided to look and saw I gained all my lost weight back. Internally I have a fight going on in my head where it’s like I need to keep trying to lose weight and the other side is saying “what’s the point? You’re back at the start again and it’s been 10 years since you’ve started to try and lose weight with no progress.”
I’m so sad and I need help. Idk what to do anymore.
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