20F, 5’4 SW: 180lbs CW: 140lbs GW (again): 120lbs
So, here’s my story. A couple years ago, I was considered obese and hated my life. Literally hated looking at myself in the mirror every day. Decided I was sick of living this way and wanted a change. I ended up losing a whopping 65 pounds in a year, reaching my lowest weight of 114 lbs last May. I felt content with myself at that weight and decided to maintain it for the next few months. Well, the moment I started to eat more, I was triggered to binge. So I did. I remembered the first time I binged, it felt so great. I felt like I was making up for all my favourite foods I had missed out on for the last year. In the moment, it was like a high. Afterwards, of course, i felt like complete crap and never wanted to do it again. But, alas, it happened again. And again. And again. It started becoming a weekly occurrence. Then every few days. Doing it once triggered an addiction. My attitude each time was “1 binge won’t destroy all my progress”. But over time, it does. It became a vicious 9-month cycle of bingeing and restriction. I gained 8 pounds over the Christmas holidays. Lost most of it in January from restriction and over-exercising. then started bingeing again and gained it all back plus more. Now here I am, in June of 2021, 25 lbs heavier as a result of having no self control. I want to start over because I am back to hating myself but I feel so defeated. I worked so unbelievably hard to get to where I was last year and my progress feels wasted.
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