It’s time for me to admit something. I’m fat. I have been for about as long as I can remember. Even all the way back in elementary school I was the chubby kid. In high school I was over 215 pounds. I have tried so many times to lose weight and every time I gave up. The best I ever did was one time that I managed to get down to 196 pounds, but then I plateaued. I couldn’t manage to get significantly below 200 pounds even though I was trying so hard and eventually I gave up again.
After turning 21 and starting to drink alcohol I quickly gained that weight back and made it up to 220 pounds. Eventually the coronavirus happened, and we all went into lockdown. I became completely sedentary and ordered delivery more often than I had any other type of meal. In that time, I gained over 80 pounds. At my heaviest I was 302 pounds. I wasn’t just chubby anymore. I’m obese now, and that’s not okay. Some people try to tell themselves that you can be healthy at any size and I don't mean to be rude but that’s simply not true. I’m not healthy. I feel like crap pretty much all the time. I’m tired. I sweat too much. I can hardly do simple physical labor that I could do easily two years ago. Sometimes just walking up stairs makes me feel winded. I'm only 23 years old, I should be in my physical prime, but I feel like an old man.
I’m done living like this. I’m posting this to make myself accountable. For the past month I’ve been changing the way I eat. I’m not “going on a diet,” because that is something temporary, that’s something I can give up on. I’m permanently changing my relationship with food. I’m eating only 1500 calories per day until I’m healthy again. I haven’t done great this month, I met my goal less than half the days I tried and yet I’ve lost five pounds. I’m currently 297 pounds and I was so happy to see a 2 as the first digit on the scale for the first time in months. But at the same time, I feel ashamed because I remember just a few years ago when I was happy to see a 1 as the first digit on the scale. I’m tired of this and I’m going to change and I’m going to get healthy.
One day, I’m going to post this picture again as the before picture in a before and after. I’m making this post as a promise to myself because I’m done being fat.
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