The past couple of years have been very hard mentally. I work in and understaffed department and totally overworked myself to the point of a mental breakdown. I have been at home since december 2020 and on the waiting list for intense therapy as my breakdown was a culmination of too much stress and things in my past that I haven't been able to process in a healthy way (including PTSD).
Since the breakdown I gained a ton of weight and I am a person who eats when upset. Luckily my energy levels did increase somewhat this summer and I hate the way I look now so I got up the courage to start working out. I decided I wanted personal attention so I would follow through. I've been working out three to four times a week for the past 6 weeks. This is a major accomplishment for me to get out of the house and I do give all that I can. I do not take shortcuts and follow the instructions to the letter.
Of course I know that working out by itself is not enough. I need to change my eating habits. Most of the time I am able to choose the right thing and I do follow the tips given to me. This week however was a stressful week and I am still worn out mentally. Which means that on wednesday I had trouble keeping to my diet and ate too much potato chips. So during the workout session (during which I had a small breakdown and started crying because I was feeling exhausted in my mind) he complimented me on my training and my attitude. After that he asked me about how my diet was going. I told him I'd had some trouble because of the emotional binging. He started an entire lecture about how bad it was and it boiled down to: just don't eat unhealthy things. Before this lecture I was so proud of myself that I had made this giant step and was following through. I told him I was in a difficult mental space but he didn't respond to it and just kept going. All my pride was washed away and I felt so small and stupid.
When we finished the session he started the whole thing again. Telling me it was just as bad as heroin and by saying 'I didn't binge that much, just one time' just made it worse. When I got home I just cried for half an hour, feeling hurt and ashamed. I know trainers are there to push you forward so maybe I overreacted and I shouldn't let it get to me on such a personal level. What do you guys think?
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