I have to take the bus in a few days and I've been so anxious about it. I've been able to avoid the bus thanks to COVID, but that's changed. It's a small community bus, so it's not like it's packed or anything, but there's usually a few people on there and I hate it. I'm grateful to have a bus available to take me around, but I hate the experience. Every time I step on the bus, I have to stand at the very front to get my ticket checked and I know people are staring. I live in an area where most people are a healthier size. I know my weight makes the bus go down a little when I step on. I haven't been on the bus in over a year and I weigh 50 pounds heavier than I did before (I was already incredibly overweight then), so I'm dreading the looks and people noticing my weight.
I take that bus to get groceries, so I'm lugging several large insulated bags with me and I keep the bus waiting for me while I make sure the bags are fastened in place. It's so embarrassing to stand up after and see people looking at me. I hate it and I've been dreading it for days. I always wonder what people are thinking when they see me, or if I'm annoying people by taking so long to secure my bags, or just looking at me in disgust. I've lost almost 20lbs, so I'm happy that I'm not heavier, but I'm so embarrassed for what's to come.
I'm sure other people have similar experiences where they dread something similar, or an appointment, or what ever it is for several days because of their weight, right?
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