Ranting: college, weight, fear

Hey,

So I am a college student and my school began a few weeks ago. I am pretty overweight; I'm 275-280 and 5'10. One thing that I felt impacted by when I'm on campus is how I can't really approach strangers. One thing about me is that I can talk to my peers pretty well, that's how it was during my first week; I can easily strike up a conversation. Yet, being in an environment where everybody is fit or jacked even makes me really self conscious. It's an environment of people who are slim attractive, rich, etc. I just feel that it's uncomfortable to try and make conversation now because of how I look and my weight. A person is at least more inclined to hold a conversation with another if the one who approaches them is attractive. In high school, J was shy and in truth suck ass at making interesting conversations. Add those two together and I feel that I would just be bothering people. This is mainly how I feel at the dining hall and since most of my classes are lecture halls, there aren't that many opportunities to talk to people in general. If I wanted to, I would have to take that initial first step of approaching a person, but all of this doubt that I have is really making me self conscious of whether or not I should if they will also enjoy the conversation.

It's something that was pointed out very obviously to me this last week. Where I would be a bit oblivious to other people's feelings and didn't pay attention to cues about whether or not they want me to stop talking or just go back to what they're doing. My sister, when she dropped me off, flat out stated that I sometimes talk a lot and is annoying, some people don't want me to. That basically acted as a seed of doubt in my head and now I am reluctant to approach strangers at all.

Am I just overthinking thing?

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