M21, 6'2"
I started out the pandemic a little bit overweight, never able to control my eating but I had enough physical activity that I was able to stop myself from getting to where I am now.
I was probably around 170lbs at the time. I recently hit 250lbs and I'm still increasing faster than ever. I didn't really a difference in looks until I stumbled on some old pictures, then some family members started to point them out, then I started to lose my flexibility and stamina, and it just kept going and going with sprinkles of attempts to control myself here and there.
I like to crack my knees by lifting my legs up to my side, grabbing my ankles, and yanking. I cannot do that anymore. My side-fat gets in the way. I used to run 5km without hurting, now I'm winded walking up the stairs, I can't reach my toes, it's difficult to tie my shoes, it's uncomfortable to sit straight because I can feel my belly, sometimes I accidentally pull the fat/skin under my armpits when I sleep in certain positions. I can't lay flat on my stomach comfortably, I can feel pushback on my neck when I turn my head from the fat there. I can't lift my arms for very long, if I look down I can feel my auxiliary super-chin formulate, and I'm now very, very weak. I used to have a jawline, and now my neck blends seamlessly into my head. I used to be able to do 100 pushups, now the pain when attempting to do 1 is too much.
I have ADHD, and I've been told that makes it difficult to lose weight. I'm not medicated, my doctor wanted me try therapy prior to going on medication but I have no interest in going. I can't even attempt to count the amount of times I've attempted to diet, even long before the pandemic and constantly let them fizzle out after 3 days - 2 weeks.
Despite my best efforts, no matter what I'll make myself 4 meals worth of food at 2AM, constantly snack, I drink 3 or 4 coffees a day... I just can't help myself. Never have been able to. Sometimes I feel very strong-willed, and that's usually when I'll "commit" to a diet but I'm never able to get them to last.
What can I do to get on the right track?
EDIT: I'd like to further explain my ADHD. I was officially diagnosed with severe ADHD. As a result, I'm very, very impulsive. I get hyper-fixated on my relationships or work, I'll find myself making $5000 purchases without so much as a thought. When I eat at 2AM, even though I know its wrong, I just don't care. Right now I care. Right now I would not throw together a midnight buffet... but tonight I know I'll be in the kitchen thinking about this post, but not caring about the consequences or what past me thinks, or what future me is going to think. I'll eat until I either get tired, or until the next portion of whatever is going to make me vomit.
[link] [comments]
source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/pe6w0n/adhd_pandemic_80lbs_weight_gain/
No comments:
Post a Comment