17F 140~ lbs
For some context, I starved myself a few years ago because I felt fat and hated the extra weight. After I started to get a bit older I realized everyone liked very curvy women, and that I was looking shapeless and skeletal. So I started to gain weight to get larger thighs, and behind. My chest grew with it, probably because I had such a low fat percentage before and I wasn’t able to develop.
I started to notice that my stomach was protruding, i couldn’t feel my hips’ sharp edges anymore, and my arms were softer and not as easy to wrap my hand around. My legs would move when I walked. I was totally destroyed. I tried to go back to starving myself, but I couldn’t muster the will to give up food again. I worked out like crazy. I saw the scale stay around 130, where I had been 110 before.
Then, i got a boyfriend who doesn’t suck. I let myself go. I gained 10 lbs and now I’m at 140, I think about it every day. Ive been trying to diet in a healthy way, but with my schedule and lack of will I end up eating too much.
But I realized, I’ve hated my body always. What shape will make me feel happy with myself? I just want to look in the mirror and feel beautiful. But I hate everything about what I see.
Does anyone else deal with this? Or maybe suggestions for fixing my body? I don’t know what will make me at least feel the best I can, even if it’s not feeling beautiful
[link] [comments]
source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/paee11/no_matter_what_i_do_i_hate_my_body/
No comments:
Post a Comment