It is partially loss of appetite from sadness but today I realized that I haven't been stress eating since we ended it. I don't crave sugar as much, I'm eating healthier without having to force it, I'm counting calories and making sure I eat enough, and now I'm focusing on working out again to start feeling more confident and fit.
I didn't realize that my relationship became a black hole for energy. I was so exhausted and all the things they wanted me to do just built up to unrealistic expectations. I got stressed out from having such high standards pushed on me, stressed out from not meeting them because I'm human and it would have taken more than I had, stressed from wanting to marry someone that I honestly had to ask "Do you think you'll ever love me more than money?" and heard "someday, yeah.", stressed from wanting to marry someone who became more distant the more serious things got, and I ate about all of it. I didn't gain beyond 15+ (I was an obese kid, overweight adult, then got myself down to a healthy weight) and still maintained my weight pretty well even with all the junkfood and sugar I was eating.
Now I'm eating unprocessed food, keeping calories low, eating fruit for dessert and enjoying it 100x more now that I'm not eating sugar, making sure I'm getting different nutrients, and I'm not as stressed. I weighed myself this morning expecting to be up and saw 157.6 instead- the lowest weight I think I've been since I was a kid. I had a big goal of 160 years ago and reached it than sprang back up 20+ pounds right after. The whole situation sucks but it's nice to have something to feel good about.
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