And here we go again...
TL;DR: Lost 80lbs four years ago and felt great, now I'm 465lbs and feel terrible but the only way to go is back down... So here we go again lol
M26 SW: 465lbs, CW: ~458lbs, GW: 200lbs
Hi guys, so like the title said, I am starting my journey again. Four years ago I decided I had enough and I was going to get in shape for once and for all. And I did a great job honestly. I didn't reach my ultimate goal, but I got smaller than I had been in my adult life and was very active. I typically walked about 1.5 miles or more during the day at my job, and after work I would go to the park and power walk/jog 3-5 miles. That may not be much for some people, but for me that may as well have been climbing mountains lol.
Anyway, long story short the following years were a little rough. I had a couple of messy break ups, got a DUI, and was laid off from my job... twice. Unfortunately I fell back on old coping habits and the weight quickly added up. And then COVID happened... Truthfully I probably gained 40-50lbs just last year. Staying holed up at home, ordering out every meal, with little to no activity was a recipe for disaster. My physical and mental health were at an all time low.
SO, I finally decided (again) last week that I HAD to start trying again! Regardless of how I feel, or if I think I can do it. The fact of the matter is I have reached a point that not doing anything is literally just a slow death... not to be morbid. I've never been this heavy before. I'm about 70lbs heavier than my previous heaviest in fact. But as I thought about it, I realized that I simply don't have another option. And I think that realization finally gave me the kick to start trying again.
As I'm sure so many of you kind souls can relate, I am just so terribly tired of restarting this cycle over year after year. At this point it feels like some cruel joke, that I'm just meant to be "the fat guy." But that's not who I am on the inside. Inside I'm an adventurer and a thrillseeker... but this mortal body is holding me back from doing the things I love. Honestly, at this point it's holding me back from living at all. So, I've taken the first step. I've started being conscious of what and how much I'm putting into my body again. Tracking my macros. Recognizing and breaking destructive habits. The whole 9 yards.
Thanks to anyone who made it this far! Not sure exactly where this post was going, but I am welcome to any advice and definitely any well wishes! And if you are in the same place that I am, please let this be your trigger as well. Let's do this together :)
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