I got called the “big one” and it bothered me.

I just needed to vent because it’s been on my mind for a few days. Pretty much how it went down I was at hard summer, we had parked our car in a dirt lot a few miles away. my boyfriend was back at the car getting the phone and I was walking next to my sister who’s about 5’2 110 pounds while I am 5’7 and easily 180. The guys directing traffic we’re laughing and cat calling at my sister talking about all the glitter on her ass, we we’re going to a rave so we had our asses out in crop tops. Some are gonna argue I was asking that kind of attention but Idgaf because it doesn’t give them the right to harass regardless of what we were wearing . Then their attention turned to me when they said “i like the big one too, you’re more my cup a tea, girl”. I didn’t respond I wish I would’ve told him to fuck off because It literally hurt my feelings so bad I should’ve made a point to let them know not to talk to strangers like that. But these were disgusting, dirty men directing parking for a rave so it shouldn’t bother me that they said that considering the source but about a couple miles after that before we got inside I just busted out crying. I don’t like being referred to as “big” even if it was supposed to come off as complimentary it was extremely hurtful and made me feel so uncomfortable. I’ve fluctuated a good 40 pounds in the last five years, sometimes I’m up sometimes I’m down. I try really hard to be active most days doing my spin bike and struggle with binge eating so it is a real sore subject for me. Even though I’ve gained I still wanna be able to look nice and feel sexy when I go out. I’m still trying to love myself at this new size. I wanna be able to wear what I wanna wear without being looked at as a “big” one. I have an amazing cute boyfriend who makes me feel sexy even when Im dirty and sweaty just done cleaning. It shouldn’t matter what strangers think. I’m honestly really glad he wasn’t there either and didn’t hear it because based off his reaction when I was telling him about it, he probably would’ve went off. I know I shouldn’t care about one shitty comment from one shitty person I just wish I would’ve stood up for myself in that moment and let them know it’s not okay to fetishize someone’s body type because that is just as insulting

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