Me and a really good friend of mine started exercising and losing weight at around the same time. I'm morbidly obese, she's always been slim and attractive, just for context. i ended up losing sixty pounds I never really went to the gym as much as her as she just took to it like a frog to water, I really tried to go about four times a week but I work a physical job, and i'm just lazy I guess. Around four months ago I fell off the wagon and put all the weight back on, I couldn't stop the cravings. May fault I know, but the self loathing has been beyond anything I can handle, I just want to die.
Every day now my friends telling me about her success in the gym, how proud she is off herself, how no matter what she'll go to the gym and it just became too much for me, I asked her for some space cause I wasn't feel mentally healthy, I didn't get it, I asked her again and she had a go at me saying it was annoying that she couldn't talk when she wanted to. I ended up blowing up and saying listening to how well your doing makes me hate mysef and I can't handle that, I just need to go quiet until I've got myself back together. She called me pathetic, said my issues are getting boring and called me a child. The bit that stuck with me was she said as her friend I should be supportive of her losing weight, and gyming, and I know I should, but at a certain point we're just friends. I want to try and get myself feeling better and her constantly talking about the gym isn't helping me. Why does she have to mention it constantly? It feels cruel to constantly rub in that she succeeded at something I failed spectacularly on. I'm just so miserable and can't handle a daily reminder of what a failure I am.
TLDR: Friend won't stop talking about the gym, I tried going and losing weight and ended up putting it all back on and stopping, having real issues with self loathing,
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