TLDR: turns out I don't want to lose fat because I don't want to be noticed or have unwanted attention.
For a long time now I've been 'trying to lose weight'. I'll lose some kgs and then lose interest or momentum. Then I'll have some sort of rebellion where I'll binge etc. I have PCOS so it is harder for me just because my macro split is a bit miserable to combat the insulin resistance. I've been confused as to why I'm not motivated to lose weight and somewhat afraid of it. Speaking with my husband last night it became very apparent that I'm afraid of being slimmer/less fat when I had a mini panic attack remembering the catcalling/comments/leers etc that j used to get.
I'm so angry and feel impotent because I'm not happy in my body as it, is but Im paralysed by the fear of dealing with the shit I have to deal with when people perceive me lol.
Anyone had any realisations like this? How do I combat this?
Thanks ☺️
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