I'm scared, I'll turn 43 this weekend and I am realizing that I've been piling on health problems since the age of 14. I was an active kid, I played 11 seasons of soccer, 6 seasons or more of football, a couple seasons of basketball and skateboarded constantly throughout until I was 17. However I inherited High blood pressure and I was diagnosed at the age of 14. I was a solid 5' 10" and about 175 at the age of 12, by the time I graduated high school I was 210 but still solid and active. Fast forward 25 years, I'm still 5'10" but 310, a smoker, a drinker and I had congestive heart failure at 25, a stroke ( that left no obvious damage) and aknee surgery at 42, {I suspect due to weight and lack of activity} . I'm on at least 10 different medications and here's the kicker, if my sugar is up and my next doctors visit I will have to start using insulin. I am absolutely drowning in shame and depression. Today I had an episode of dizziness and the familiar feeling that I felt after having a stroke. I'm scared....and I have to admit weak. I told myself to write this down and display it for the reddit community in a way of trying to hold myself accountable, I never know how its gonna go, it could cause ridicule and harsh judgement, or it could become a support system for positive change. I figure either way it should be motivation to reinvent my body and self esteem. I'm going to the gym for the first time since covid , I'm going to invite my wife and son as well. Hopefully we can all do this together and give each other support. Thanks for reading and cross your fingers. I gotta eat right and get this chunky ass moving.
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