I no longer fit into my pre-covid clothes.
I’ve gained around 15kg in just a year because of lockdown and the stress from A Levels. Not moving around enough and using food for comfort caused a lot of weight gain for me. I feel like i waddle when I walk now which makes me feel like I’m huge but I’m not but it’s so frustrating.
I finished secondary school around 3 months ago. I had plans back then to start working out and eating better but alas that never happened. I’ve been going out with friends a lot more since then, which means I end up eating a bunch of caloric food. Instead of getting active I just keep sitting down or lying in bed as it’s more comfortable. I can’t bring myself to move more, I don’t have the motivation to and my mind goes “I just dealt with 2 years of stressful schooling, I deserve a break”
My mum has noticed that I’m not swimming in my clothes anymore and just always bugs me about it. Started to wear loose clothing just so she won’t see how much I’ve gained. I hate it when she lectures me, so I barely go on the scale, afraid that she’ll see my weight and gasp loudly. She tells me I snack too much, which is true but idk how to stop. I would try to snack on something healthier than biscuits but there’s barely any fruit in the kitchen and when there is she tells me “why pick a banana?? That’s a very caloric food!” And when the fruits aren’t wet caloric, I’m not allowed to eat them because she’s saving it for a cake. Oh and the cakes- Gosh I swear every single time I try to make a change in my diet she decides to bake a cake, bring french pastries or desserts. When I say I don’t want any she says “wow really?! Are you sure??” I feel like she’s taunting me. There’s that and there’s also my stupid need to not waste food and eat it all before it goes off.
Oh and my dad sometimes brings home these huge ass heart attack sandwiches and my mum just lets him do that if it means she doesn’t need to cook lunch that day. She also cooks lunch super late in the day, like at 3pm which makes me snack more between breakfast and lunch because of how kind I have to wait. I could try to make my own food but idk what ingredients she’s saving for a meal and she finds it annoying when anyone is in the kitchen. I feel like as an 18 year old, I have no control over my life and my diet. But there’s also the fact that I have no motivation to exercise. I’d do it at home but I hate exercising in front of people. I’d go on a walk outside but due to my lack of social interaction because of covid I feel awkward being outdoors and seeing people I know.
It’s so frustrating
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