I've been overweight all my life. Even when I was a child and riding bikes and exercising all the time, i was the 'fat' one. I've done diets throughout my entire life (I'm 40 now). I've done the Weight Watchers, the Atkins, done the Curves workshops, the Gyms, the trainers, etc. And nothing helps. I gain weight and it never comes off. I'm down to 1000 calories a day due to a doctors orders, and I'm not losing weight, though I have plateaued at 350lbs. I stick to fruits, some grains, and some fish and chicken. I only drink water.
My depression meds (thanks school for the trauma that gifted me with depression), over the space of 10 years, had me gain weight like crazy. I finally went off some of my meds 2 years ago (with a doctor's help) and I've plateaued, but I can't lose weight, no matter how much I exercise, or how much I restrict my diet. Should I go down to 500 calories a day? It's not like I'm hungry, I just eat enough so that I don't pass out again, and even then, eating hurts me physically because of my IBD.
I'm so f-ing tired of everything. I get looks every day, I get laughed at, I've had doctors blame everything I have on being fat (like sure, my fibromyalgia and the pain in my hands and the cysts on my ovaries is because I'm fat, thanks doc), so what hope do I have?
I'm tired of all the hate and the looks I get. I'm tired of having to fight for the right to exist.
I just... I'm at the end of my rope, and I don't know what to do anymore.
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