This is a mixed story because on the one hand I am in the middle of some success, but om the other I. Can't. Stop. Thinking. About. Food.
Stats are I'm 35, male, 5'11, currently 205 lbs down from 230. I decided to give in and see a weight loss clinic because I was just constantly failing.
So I'm halfway through a 12 week program. They have me on a keto diet with meal replacement shakes except for dinner, and also put me on Saxenda.
So I'm a binge eater, pretty bad. The Saxenda has been a game changer. It totally killed my appetite. I haven't had a single misstep since I started this program. I have day in day out been at goal or under.
And yet. I am still so obsessed with food. I guess this is the difference between obsession and compulsion. Because before I would be irrestibly compelled to order 3 whoppers and fries, or two pizzas, or so much Chinese food that they gave me 4 forks. That's not happening now. I don't fight to not order delivery or anything like that. A lot of that is the Saxenda, but part of it is also that I don't want to break out of ketosis and in general don't want to kill my streak. I'm also plateauing a bit now and feel like if I fuck it up now I'll shoot right up. Like I've lost momentum or something.
But now instead of that compulsion is an obsession. Those times of the evening when I would have ordered delivery, I am now just dominated by thoughts of food. I've started to watch eating challenge videos on YouTube. Guys just crushing 10,000 calories in a setting. Everything on the McDonald's menu. Every Domino's specialty put. 10 packs of Korean fire noodles.
Like, it's kind of disturbing. I mean it proves it's not about hunger because I'm always doing this after my real dinner, and the Saxenda makes you feel full immediately. But didn't I know that already?
What's bad is that I keep telling myself I'm going to have that kind of night again when I finish my plan. That I'm going to binge as my first cheat day. These neural pathways are not going down without a fight it seems.
Anyone else feel like this? Like you are still definitely a binger even though you aren't binging? Any advice?
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