Please, I'm having a panic attack over my weight gain and I just don't know what to do anymore. Any encouragement will help. I just want to know that I can do this.
I have ballooned from 128 to 210 pounds over the past 5 years. I'm devastated. I have a loving devoted boyfriend but I feel like even he won't want to stick around at this pace.
The scale said I gained 2 pounds today and I feel so frustrated. I feel doomed. It's been a couple months but I've gained? I understand muscle but I literally eat so little I don't get it! I think if I don't lose any fat in 3 months I don't know what to do. A body isn't supposed to do that.
I'm so happy I'm getting strong at the gym. I found out I really like spin classes I make myself. God I want to feel like I have control over my body. I would do anything to feel like I can depend on the fact the weight will come off.
Somethings I'm trying to pat myself on the back for.
*I'm doing rewarding weight lifting and ab workouts 4- 5 times a week. I am trying to do cardio everyday. I am stronger! So that's good!
*I stopped taking a med that I just found out caused exhaustion and uncontrollable food cravings. I've been taking it for 7 years. 😭 I don't know if my hormones and metabolism will ever go back to normal but I hope so. I feel like I have my energy back and I feel a bit better.
*I have resigned myself to making a large amount of high protein and nutritious that lasts for 4 days to a week. That way I don't ask to go out to eat anymore and I feel like my eating stability and cravings are more controlled. This week I made firecracker beef and broccoli and rice. It was delicious and I'm saving money. Not so great but my boyfriend is worried about me eating less than 1000 calories a day. I would eat more if I felt like I lost a single pound. Why isn't calories in and out not working?? I know I'm not doing my metabolism any help but I feel sick now if I eat more.
*I'm trying to drink more water. I suck at this.
Thanks for letting me vent
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