Hey Soooo i had a lot of introspection recently. Idk if it's relevent but wanted to share. I know theres work to do but ... It's a start. Pls note I am NOT saying these experiences don't happen to fat people because i know they do but it's just.... How I have felt (wrongly)
CW - sexual harassment Quick about me, 24, f, obese (but lost 10 lb recently!)
Sooooo my first time I was fucking terrified and harassed was age 12 in my home village. I was walking home and a group of men literally surrounded me and encircled me and just... Made leery jokes at me. I was slim at that age with hips and boobs. From then thru teen years I was harassed a lot, scared of men a lot. 18 my weight began to rise, And now I m 24 and obese.
I hadn't ever really thought about it til this awful sad Sarah Everard case. I know what it's like to be scared on way home and I realised that when I am fat... I am invisible to men (I know attacks are not about attraction really, but Its how I viewed it) .. men look through me like I'm not there. I guess I spent my youth experiencing it, and recently my skinny sister being... Creeped out on trains or friends followed on walks and part of me is like .... Yep, this will avoid that. I get called fatty sometimes but I am not followed or groped. It's like.. a safety net. I remember being ...so uncomfortable with my looks before, and now I feel relief when men almost don't register me (aside from my boyf ofc lol).
But nah no more. I know there's a lot of work to do, and issues to unpack but even just kind of being aware of them is like a lightbulb moment.
I'm not willing to hurt my health. I'm giving up things I love like horses bc of my weight, risking illness ... Nah i'll ...dress modestly or get a scary dog or get fit so I can leg it off but not live like this anymore. I'm hurting myself and for what????? Being fat is not going to save me. Fatness is probably going to kill me quicker than a random attacker. And even if it didn't, fitness is my best chance.
Anyway. Just wanted to share. We will see what the next few months bring! A stronger fitter me hopefully. (Pls no not all men comments.)
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