Long story short- I’ve struggled with my weight my whole life. I’ve twice lost 100+ pounds in the last 10 years and TWICE put it back on. I have one of those blessing/curse things where people often tell me “you don’t look like you weigh XXX pounds.”
This is such a mental struggle for me, especially as I get older and losing is harder and harder. I suffer from anxiety and depression and a lot of it is weight/body image related. I’m on meds which has evened this out, but I still get bummed out from time to time (tonight for instance).
Tell me if I’m alone in this- I am so afraid of going out and seeing people who last saw me when I had lost all my weight. I am afraid of the silent “oooh he gained a lot of weight.” I have major anxiety around that alone. As we near warmer months, I can’t really wear my comforting winter clothes which hide it...that too has me freaking out inside.
Anyway I guess I’m posting this to try to motivate myself to undertake another effort to lose the weight yet again. I’ve been back on the treadmill the past two weeks, but I have to clean up my diet.
Thanks for reading this far and please encourage me if you feel so inclined.
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