i gained back a majority of the weight i lost before quarantine. which, is about 30 pounds since this all started. i was at a great 5’4, 153 lbs. toned muscle and the best shape i’ve ever been in. i dealt with a, technically 2 break ups between this time. i really looked at myself in the mirror about a month ago, and i was like “shit, i’m far gone from where i was last year”
but i kept getting, “you know, everyone’s dealing with their own personal shit right now. people are gain weight/losing weight and gaining or losing friends. it’s all apart of this weird journey” totally understandable.
but from where i was: in shape, clear face, worked with a lot of young people like myself in person, i felt my confidence was constantly being practiced and challenged. once quarantine started, i stop challenging myself as much. and i also work from home, away from all of my work friends. so i lost a lot of my social-ness, i feel. i just got back on the horse as of lost month, taking it slow, but going about 5 days of of the week.
i don’t reach out to my friends as much, i’ve noticed since i’ve made these changes (snap, twitter etc) and to be honest, i noticed after losing weight, being in shape and gaining it back, the people i normally talked to treat me differently. my friends used to always find ways to reach out, and it was a two-way street, but since the weight gain, i feel like i’m not respected by them as much. it hurts.
so i’m not reaching out to them either. i feel like it’s helping me work on me, but at the same time, i feel like i’m being an overthinking ass, and isolating myself bc people might be dealing with the same things i am. (the last time i hung out with some friends was about a month ago. i’m usually very social)
tl;dr: was in great shape before quarantine, gained my weight back and my friends don’t treat me the same as when i was in shape. i feel like i’m responsible for them moving on from me. should i let people come to me and focus on myself during this journey?
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