Last summer I did it. I hit the 100lbs lost mark. I made it from 283, to 183 which also put me - just barely - in a normal BMI. It took a year and a half.
Since then I've been struggling to lose the last 10-15 lbs I'd like to lose. My weight has been pretty steady around the 180-183 range, once dropping down to 177 but I always put those few pounds back on. Watching the scale go down that first year and a half was like a drug. It was what kept me going. Now that it's barely moving I've had a more difficult time. It's not just that. This past year has done a whammy on the positive and healthy habits I gained. Couldn't go to the gym, so I bought dumbbells and a yoga mat and started working out at home. That went great for a few months and then I got in a bad car accident. The concussion took 2-3 months to heal.
Worked on getting back to my exercise routine and then I started to have back pain (It ended up being a UTI that cleared up with antibiotics).
Got back on track again, and then I got covid. Really really easing back into things after that. I had it a month ago and am pretty much back to normal but I've read articles about people going too hard after recovering and then relapsing. I don't want to risk that.
But it's not just having the exercise. I am 'treating' myself way more often than I did in that year and a half. I know if I could just cut that out things would be better. I just ate 1000cals worth of jelly beans in one sitting. After Christmas, I brought a bunch of discounted chocolate. I always have the best intentions. I'll buy this thing and expose myself to this food trigger and I'll get better at my control.
It never quite works out that way.
I know I need to have self compassion for myself and not let things like this send me into a spiral, but it scares me. I was so fat. I know the statistics, most people gain it all back and more. I don't want to go back, but I don't know how to get out of this rut. It's like I lost grip of that rope I used to find my way through the darkness for the first year and a half, and I can't find it in the darkness.
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