You know that saying “be careful what you wish for”? Well for months I’ve been saying how much I want the vaccine so I can actually return to semi-normal life and finally get a gym membership now that I have a job and money. I was so upset thinking I wouldn’t qualify. I mean I do have asthma but it’s not severe and I’ve had pneumonia twice in my life and the one time I was hospitalized and almost died from it at 3 years old.
But to just hear that I qualify because my BMI is 36 (5’5 223lbs) is so upsetting... I just feel embarrassed and ashamed. I feel guilty and disgusted, for letting myself get like this. I’d been flying high the last few weeks cause I finally lost 10lbs and have been looking and feeling so much better and now I’m just devastated. Being overweight is still something new to me I was never overweight till 5 years ago.
I scheduled my appointment but now I’m terrified when I go to get the vaccine they’ll question why I’m there since I’m only 26. A lot of people have told me I don’t look like I’m over 200lbs but I feel like they’re just lying to make me feel better.
Anyways this was an extreme wake up call. A slap in the face. Sorry for venting I know I should be happy and thankful. And I’m really sorry for being all woe is me I just feel like I’m drowning in shame, disgust, guilt...
I will now be working much harder and doing more to lose this weight and make myself feel as though I deserve this because I feel very unworthy right now...
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