Hello. I am a recovering heroin addict. I have been doing good for about 4 years, but have developed a real bad problem with food, almost as though I have replaced the heroin with binging. There is a slogan in recovery "1 is too many and 1,000 is never enough" and I feel that way with junk food.. 1 will set me off to where I almost can't stop..and I have even felt so bad I've made myself throw up. (Only a couple times when a ll the junk food hurts my stomach). I was prescribed phentermine which helps the food obsession, but in the morning pre-dosing, I wake up thinking of whatever sugary sweets my boyfriend just bought for breakfast. Those happen to be my favorite foods too: donuts, pastries, etc. I've asked that he hide them from me but the kids eat them, too..its just impossible to avoid. Starting the day off binging is so discouraging and depressing. I just did it now and it's only 5AM (we wake up really early with our newborn). I just ate a huge chunk of lemon crunch cake, a donut, mini chocolate muffins... I did keto about 2 years ago and was able to lose a bit (for about a month).. but those breakfast sweets..1st thing in the AM..I am not even hungry I just crave them. Wtf is wrong with me :( it's taking a huge toll on my self esteem and I hate for my daughters to see me like this. Gyms are closed and I don't have any large enough personal space in my house to exercise. I just need some advice or maybe encouragement. I'm so disappointed I ruined another day with caloric overload AGAIN.😪
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