so a few years ago I (5"7) weighed 101kg. I hated how I looked I hated how I felt so I made a change in my diet, lots of logging on mfp etc and got down to about 77kg.
Now here are the problems. I have bipolar disorder, pretty badly to the extent that I can't work. If I'm in a really good period and I'm lucky I can be stable for a while and actually look after myself, when I'm not... a lot less so. The medications I take tanked my thyroid so I'm on thyroid replacement medication and alllll of my meds have weight gain as a side effect. The deck is pretty stacked. Right now at least I consider it a good day if I get dressed and don't actively wish to drop down dead.
I just don't know how to motivate myself when an episode can set me back, the last I weighed myself I was back up to 94kg, I lost nearly all the progress I made before. It's hard to log my meals when I can barely get the energy to cook, let alone weigh and portion things as I go. It's hard to make myself workout when I can't even get dressed and leave the house like nine times out of ten.
I don't want to be fat, I know it makes things worse, I know it makes me feel worse about myself but like... jesus what the hell am I supposed to do here? Everything feels pointless and I can't be consistent with anything because my brain chemistry hates me.
Is there anyone here in a similar boat that has any advice? Everything is so hard.
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