I eat like a freaking maniac. Candy everyday, mutiple sugary coffee drinks, multiple king size candy bars, usually fast food more than once per day, an entire pack of oreos in one sitting, you get the picture. I feel very guilty about what I'm doing to my body, and I'm starting to feel the physical consequences of my lifestyle. My feet hurt after working for a few hours, my skin is awful, my digestion is awful, I feel nauseous everyday. I have so many clothes in my closet that Ive held onto for years thinking, "I can wear this again when I finally lose weight.."
I've been slightly overweight my entire life, though now by the numbers I'm considered obese (5'3'' 174lbs) and since I can remember, I've had a really weird relationship with food. At around 11 or so, I developed a binge eating habit, and I quickly learned about purging. Purging has come in waves over the years (been a while since I purged ~7 moths), but the binging never goes away. I tried seeing a doctor about my eating habits, and it was very awkward to say in the least. It didn't help very much and the doc was very dissmissive. He told me I was depressed and put me on serotonine reuptake inhibitors, and I couldn't really see any changes in mood or behaviors so I gave up on the medical route and tried to focus on sheer willpower which has failed me every time.
I've lurked here for a long time and it makes me happy to see other folks dramatic changes. I couldnt imagine losing hundreds of pounds when I struggled for a decade to lose 40. I've never shared the details of my diet with anyone (except doc) and have always tried to silently battle binging and terrible habits. I think that being part of a community with the same mentality will help me. I'm tired of being fat and feeling like shit. Its time to change.
Also, if anyone has had a similar or equally bad experience with a doctor and wants to discuss, I'd love to. I felt really dumb and put down by my experience and would've liked to talk to someone in the same boat a the time. Thanks.
TL;DR I'm tired of being miserable and I'm going to lose 40 pounds.
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