22 M / 5 FEET 7 INCHES / SW 99.3 KG CW 84.5 KG GW 68KG
Hey guys , i have been a lurker in this sub Reddit for a while now. And now , i finally have something to say.
I used to be a healthy kid. Very skinny and agile and honestly , just healthy. But when i turned 10 we moved houses and i changed schools. That's when the weight kept on piling up. In the subsequent 12 years I've tried to lose it many times , but never been able to. Always thought it was too hard , not possible , I'm just a obese unhealthy person and will stay that way for the rest of my life.
But this past January something changed. I used to be a smoker. 5 ciggs a day for 2 years in college and i got a big anxiety attack and i genuinely believed i had cancer ( had a thing on my lip ). That put things into perspective. Life was not going good. My career after college was not booming as i had hoped and my ocd and depression were taking over me. But the cancer scare was big. It made me quit cigarettes then and there. ( Took 2 drags on 25th December again to "check" if i liked it. I did. But still didn't feel like doing more. Have been off of them for 5 months now. And even tho i still love smoking , no matter how mad it is , i know I'm never going to do it again. ) And that final push of of quitting smoking made me realize one thing : i can change.
On the 31st of December i had a good meal. A pizza ( 4 slices ) and coke. And then the very next day i decided to change. I had a new power of controlling my life and i decided to let go of all my bad habits. Cold drinks , junk food and every unhealthy item was gone from my diet for 4week stretches. But the first month i lost only 2kgs. And went back home for a while. Gained them back on purpose , i thought my diet was only when i was in a different city. That is when i found out about Obese to Beast. His YouTube channel changed my life , along with Will Tennyson.
Calorie counting and basic education of a diet , or as i too like to call it now , lifestyle change were so important. I now understand the calorie in - out method. Calorie counting. Portion control. And what it really means to be healthy.
I am proud to say after 3 months from that day i have lost a total of 15kgs steadily. My SW was 99.3kg and now i am sitting at 84kg and going down. The best part is , I don't restrict my diet. I eat pizza if i want to. I had one 3 weeks ago. But that was it. Every other day i make food at home. Cook with cheese , rice , maida , everything. But because of calorie counting i know how much i can eat. What my portion control is and what foods are good for me. I calculated my tdee and now i know exactly what i can and cannot exceed calorie vise. I exercise too! I never thought i would. I found that Zumba and home workouts were way better for me than a gym. I never liked going to the gym. But working at home is a blessing. I also enjoy long walks! Losing calories while listening podcasts is so fun.
My life has turned upside down. Depression and ocd are still no good and i am a long ways from my GW of 68kg. But for the first time in my life i have no doubt that i can get there. If anyone of you is struggling , i have one thing to say : read , watch and listen. The internet is your friend. YouTube has so many who have gone through what we are going through and they can help. Learn about tdee , calories , portion control and go at it 1 kg or a pound at a time. We can do it.
Thank you.
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