I’ve been overweight my whole life, but my love affair for over eating and moving never really didn’t play well into my adult life. Realizing I can’t do physical things I used to do sucks every time. My first trip to the big and tall store sucked balls. The sleep apnea, the indigestion, all sorts of changes you’d never really think of.
Once I passed 300, I stopped being able to weigh myself with a regular scale. My last doctor’s appointment a few years ago had me at about 365, and I’ll bet I ended 2019 close to 400. I’ve made declarations and set out to lose weight dozens of times. But this year something snapped, and I’d like to feel like a person again.
Anyway, I knew this was different. And made a conscious choice not to take my initial weight, take before pictures, or even tell anybody what I’m doing. I didn’t want to make it a thing, didn’t want to sweat over the numbers or have people ask me about it. I figured I’d feel the differences just like I did on the way up.
I’ve been keeping at 1,200 calories or less most days. Completely cut out snack foods which is insane. No more fast food, no more eating late. Up until recently I was hitting the gym when I can, doing hour runs on the bike. I’ve fallen into the habits with little resistance. I’m not often tempted by cravings, and have been cooking the hell out of seafood and Korean food. It’s been four months, and my clothes fit me the same. I don’t look or feel any different, and nobody’s said anything. At my size, it’s a scientific fact that I must be losing weight taking in 1200 calories a day. But now I wish I at least had a reference point to prove this wasn’t a waste of... I don’t know, not binge eating McChickens every day. I’m starting to gain some perspective that this is really a journey, not a task.
I wish I had those numbers right now to see how far I’ve gotten. I truly didn’t think I’d need them.
Sorry if this is a shitty post, I’ve been passively lurking subs like this since I started, but have never talked about it at all. Does anybody else have any experience taking on a major change like this without any landmarks?
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