33 nearly 34 F. 4' 11" SW 210lbs. GW:119lbs.
I have been here before. A few years ago I managed to drop to 145lbs. My lowest weight since I was 14. Unfortunately, I let bad mental habits creep their way in. Toss a bought of depression and grief and I'm back once again to my highest weight. I know it will take real dedication and mindfulness to lose the weight - and to become resilient enough to sustain any weightless.
I have been in therapy and it helps. I am presently battling negative self talk, doubt, and feelings of failure. I never wanted to be this for my entire life. Fat has been my identity forever. I always liked to imagine myself as an evolved, better, healthier person in a remote future scenario. I'm too old and now the mental gymnastics and fantasies cannot even pull it off. I know my future if real change does not happen now. I will only ever identify myself as the fat one.
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