So 3 weeks ago i was riding high, it was my birthday party and i was down to 132lbs. I felt great. I had worked hard for that and the results showed themselves.
I decided that since it was my 30th birthday i would eat whatever i wanted from Saturday until Monday. I did and ate soo much chocolate cake that my jaw hurt.
I go to work on Tuesday and find out I have to work a night shift on Friday (I normally work day shift). The task that I had to do involved writing by hand everything that happened for 12hrs for the submission to the FDA. Since my heart wasn't in it going back to a deficit (I had been in a deficit since around 28th of December) I decided on doing maintenance. I probably ate a lot more than I should across the week, but I got told I did a great job by my boss on Monday.
However the scale was up to 137lbs come Sunday. I was fairly exhausted from my night shift on Friday so i only made it to the gym on Sunday. The scale dropped to 136lbs across the week, my Pilates class was cancelled on Tuesday but I managed to make it to swimming on Thursday.
My husband made me a lovely meal last night for Valentine's just the way I like it (really salty) and and as a result the scale is up again to 137lbs. I am going spinning today and reducing salt for the next few days.
I just feel soo frustrated. I feel like a failure to myself. Yet I have no regrets, I had a brilliant 30th birthday, I did great at work and I have a very thoughtful husband, but godammit I can't stop feeling angry at myself.
We are going on Vacation in 30 days to a Spa and I feel like I won't be back to where I want to be by then and when I think of that I feel even worse.
I am seeing my therapist this week so maybe I will discuss some of this with her.
TLDR: Had a great birthday, stressful time at work, and a lovely valentines, gained some weight now really mad at myself.
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