Summers are coming up in my country. I've been trying to lose weight.. has been an on and off journey... Put on so much fat on my thighs that they measure 25 inches. Coz of which I've been unable to wear shorts as they ride up constantly and mostly I can't even purchase shorts as they form cameltoes
Previous summer: Even when I found a perfect fit and wore them people stared at me and even called me derogatory stuff like sl*t BECAUSE I was a 5ft tall girl w 58kg(then) weight on myself wearing "vulgar clothes"(those weren't even booty shorts; just regular mid-thigh length). It shattered me. And at that time, I already was on a journey to lose weight and had already been working out for about 10 days. When this happened my mental peace was disturbed and I stopped working out. And wearing shorts became kind of a gray area for me. I live in India.
This summer: I'm excited about losing weight. And putting on shorts finally and getting rid of this "restriction". And I saw a girl wearing a pair on streets the other day. And it struck a chord with me. I have been imagining to just walk down the road casually carefree wearing shorts.
And I don't know if it'll happen... Don't know how I'd ease into it and be comfortable. EVEN IF I LOSE WEIGHT. When someone disrespects you due to any factor... Even if you get rid of it.. that feeling of disrespect never goes away. And I'm apprehensive hence. Even though I'm dying to wear shorts at the same time.
Please help
Ps.. I broke down writing this. Haven't talked to anyone about this in this whole year
Also, I live in India. It might give a context to this incident I described from last year to people of the west.
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