Hi everyone. I've been part of this sub for a long time, and I've been many weights throughout my time here - ranging from obese to just overweight. As of right now, I'm sad to say I am once again obese - but that's not really my point in this post.
After gaining back weight I had previously lost due to struggles with disordered eating, I stopped exercising. There were lots of reasons - I was too busy with college, I was depressed, I didn't have time, I didn't have energy. I just plain didn't want to do it. This lack of exercise has put me in a place where I can't do as much as I used to at the gym.
If you're anything like me - and people who struggle with their weight tend to be - you might be exceptionally hard on yourself when you can't do as much as someone else. You see it as a failure, and in turn, you see yourself as a failure. I'm here to remind you that this is not the case.
Yesterday, I went back to the gym for the first time in a month, and before that, it had been the first time in a few months. Yesterday, I went on the bike machine, and I could only do 10 minutes on high resistance. I was so disappointed in myself. I couldn't believe how I'd let it get this bad. According to most, I'm supposed to do at least 30 minutes of cardio, and I can only fucking do 10? What the hell is wrong with me?
Well, you know what? At least I did 10. And today, I went back to the gym. And I did 12. And I felt so fucking good. I am so proud of myself for getting up, putting on my gym clothes, and getting on that bike for those 12 minutes.
Who cares if everyone else in the gym is doing more than 10 minutes? The you of yesterday couldn't do this - the you of yesterday didn't do this! But the you today did! Be proud of yourself for what you can accomplish, and make it a goal to do more as your body allows. Don't torture yourself trying to make your body do something it's not yet capable of; these things will come with time. Be kind to your body. You deserve to be healthy, but health isn't a switch you can flip.
Tomorrow I'm going back, and I'm going to do 15 minutes. And I'm going to keep aiming higher, because I deserve to feel good. You all do too. :)
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