I hate myself for even writing this.
I’ve struggled with my weight all of my teen/adult life and especially since having kids. This last January, I reached my highest weight ever at 5’3” and about 215 lbs. Miserable, in constant pain, depressed, exhausted all the time. My mom had been doing this all liquid VLCD (very low calorie diet) that is run and supervised by a doctor in a local medical clinic and had a lot of success with it. She offered to pay for me to do the program with her, and after some thought I agreed and jumped in January 8th.
Fast forward to around August and I was down to about 165 lbs from this shake-based program, even with a few times of falling off track. So about 50 lbs lost, starting to feel so much better both physically and emotionally. I started a new office job at the end of May and managed to stick to the program most of the time, but personal life and being surrounded by my coworkers ordering takeout every day got to me and I went off plan HARD. Then sometime in September, my kids and I got pretty sick for about a week, threw up the shakes and ever since then couldn’t stand drinking them.
Now here we are in December and every day it’s like my brain is in panic mode of wanting to eat ALL THE THINGS. My weight is back up to about 190, so I’ve gained back like 25 lbs in a couple months. All of my new, smaller clothes are tight now. My body aches constantly again, I feel horrible about myself again. Of course I look in the mirror and hate what I see.
Of course I know HOW to lose weight and I have the tools, but making myself start calorie counting again feels like the hardest thing in the world. What’s worse is my mom is maintaining her weightloss from the program and I’m kicking myself, partly for doing a liquid plan that I knew wouldn’t fix my issues with food, and partly because I’m ashamed of myself for gaining and wasting the money she spent helping me.
I’m majorly struggling and I would appreciate any advice or kick in the ass!
TL;DR: Lost 50 lbs this year on a medically supervised VLCD liquid diet, have gone off the rails and gained back 25 in the last couple months. Know what to do, but having trouble making myself do it all over again.
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