With clothes you can disguise things to a certain point(obviously you’re still going to look fat) and create proportions that are more aesthetically pleasing.
When the clothes come off and i stand in the mirror though, I just look awkward and misshapen. Protruding love handles and stomach but no hips. Square butt, huge arms that seem to be disproportionate to the rest of my body. Jiggly hanging triceps that don’t seem to be improving with weight lifting. sad boobs. No matter what I wear on top I look top heavy due to my huge boobs and arms but lack of hips and butt.
I cannot stand to look at myself without clothes, it makes me want to cry. I don’t know how I let this happen. And even when you’re actively losing weight it’s terrifying because you don’t know what permanent damage has been caused that will require surgery. I predict my arms will only continue to look worse as I lose more weight, and ill likely need lipo or an arm lift in order to truly feel comfortable. I’m already setting aside money each month so that when the time comes I’ll be able to afford it.
I’m sorry that this post is negative. I really just wanted to rant to people who would understand. Being fat destroys your body. I don’t even remember what my body looked like when I was a normal weight and have always been insecure, so I don’t even have photos. I know that what I’m seeing in the mirror is real though and not in my head. I take lots of progress pics and the reality of what I’ve looked like for so long, it’s depressing.
I was invited to go out with some of my girlfriends last night. I plannedon going but once I started trying to pick out cute girly going out clothes I just felt like I looked so terrible and out of shape. I ended up cancelling. I’m tired of being the fat girl with a bunch of fiends who are at a healthy BMI. It is not fun at all. All of the clothes I could have worn were a bunch of items I chose to hide my body and I just didn’t want to hide anymore. I want to be comfortable with myself so I can actually enjoy being out!
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