I'm not sure if others can relate, but I've always struggled to fully accept that I have a binging problem. Now of course, I knew on some level I binged. On the other hand, I would constantly tell myself things like; "but not like people who binge. Mine is just a little issue. I just get really hungry. I'm just a little impulsive and I'll just not do this tomorrow.". I'd reinforce this everytime the huge wave of pain and guilt struct me after a binge.
I recently met a friend who's been really helping me get fit and lose some weight. I went from 187ish to about 175. I was recently at 170, but this recent week has been a horrible fallback into binging habits.
I've always done this since my dad told me I was fat as a young child. Maybe 8 or 9 years old. I was a slightly chubby, but not horrible obese child. I wasn't offered any help or way to process this information. So my 8 year old brain reacted by starting a "let's just gain weight if we're unable to fix this" and "oh my god I'm so ugly and horrible and useless and I gotta starve" cycle. By the time I was 12 I'd developed bulimia. My dad did start helping by preparing meals, weighing me, etc. Etc. At some point but it was too late by then.
But, recently if had a change of heart. I have finally decided to embrace the fact that I DO have this issue, and it's not going away anytime soon if I dont start treating it like a serious, urgent problem. So I've been learning all I can and trying to pick up tools to help me. I'm really only on day 1 of this mindset. I dont know if it's going to workout yet, but i do know I'm not stopping until I've recovered. So. Congrats me! I've taken the first step.
Feel free to comment your own experiences and or things that helped you! Thanks for reading
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