Hi all, the title pretty much says it all. I'm nearly 400lb, 35 years old, and I have binge eating disorder. I don't want to die and leave my kids without their mum, I'm terrified of it (ESPECIALLY now because I know that Covid-19 is extra deadly if ventilators can't work to full capacity on an obese body) but I'm struggling every day not to binge eat.
I don't have the option of counselling or therapy even when not under lockdown, so I'm going to have to overcome this without it. The trouble is, any kind of restriction causes my eating disorder to absolutely mess with my head, and even more now when I'm trying to home school and be calm, positive and supportive to look after the kids' mental health. I'm incredibly lucky to have the loveliest husband who really tries, but ultimately can't understand my actions and struggles not to enable me when I'm miserable.
I guess I'm here asking for any advice people may have for me, and to generally feel like part of a community albeit anonymously. For now I'm just going to try and stick to the basics - three meals a day, earlier bed time so I don't secretly eat when I'm alone, and drink more water. I'm hoping that a few weeks of light restriction will get me to a place where I can try Myfitnesspal again without calorie counting sending me into a downward spiral.
If you've read this, thank you, I've been reading loseit posts for years and you all seem like a friendly and supportive bunch :)
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